I definitely feel like I said a goodbye to a
part of myself, which was really hard. I
think that's why it felt like a death and I
kept saying that, you know, even in therapy
, I was like, it feels like somebody's died
and I just don't understand why I feel so upset
because I've been through this multiple times before with characters
. Like I say goodbye to characters all the time
. I just wrapped my last movie, you know
. But it just, it was just, it's
just a piece of me. I don't understand.
And I, and I was really having a hard
time understanding why I couldn't keep being her, um
, like I'm like, OK, I could just
play her anytime I want, but it's not the
same thing, like you just need to be in
the environment with the people and it's that that really
builds it for me, but, It definitely took
a lot of work on myself to kind of say
goodbye to a version of myself that I really deeply
valued and loved. Um, and it's always with
you but it's just not, like she's just not
there anymore and like neither is anyone else and I
think that's also really hard, right? It's just
be like, I'm never gonna be able to be
11 and play a scene. But what she taught
you and yes, of course. And those are
memories and lessons I'll take throughout my whole career.
But of course it's just, it's just, it's
uh and that kind of energy I and all of
that I used for the season. I agree with
that. Like the next day I was like really
way more devastated than I thought I was going to
be, um. And less so for the character
for me like I, I loved playing Willie.
He's such a huge part of it, but like
being around everyone in that environment, like we will
always have each other as friends, but being on
set together and working with each other and working with
her in those roles, like we'll never have that
again. And so having to say, yeah,
goodbye to that was hard, hard. We're a
family till the day we die, whether we like
it or not, we're always going to be family
, and I think. Um, I think that
is something I'll always carry with me, and I
think that's why the show is what it is,
because we, we believe in that too, and
we all have the common goal, and every single
year, we bring it better and better and better
, and I think that this season, I've never
seen, The cast come together more in in the
years and we bring it like I've never seen it
before. It's almost like the biggest thank you to
the Duffers. Like, that's how I view it
, you know, it's like they gave me this
opportunity to be 11 and to bring this character to
life for them. And so, all I can
do is for the next year, give it my
all to say thank you because I'll forever be in
debt. My, my career is, is owed
to them.