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I definitely feel like I said a goodbye to a

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part of myself, which was really hard. I

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think that's why it felt like a death and I

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kept saying that, you know, even in therapy

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, I was like, it feels like somebody's died

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and I just don't understand why I feel so upset

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because I've been through this multiple times before with characters

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. Like I say goodbye to characters all the time

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. I just wrapped my last movie, you know

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. But it just, it was just, it's

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just a piece of me. I don't understand.

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And I, and I was really having a hard

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time understanding why I couldn't keep being her, um

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, like I'm like, OK, I could just

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play her anytime I want, but it's not the

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same thing, like you just need to be in

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the environment with the people and it's that that really

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builds it for me, but, It definitely took

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a lot of work on myself to kind of say

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goodbye to a version of myself that I really deeply

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valued and loved. Um, and it's always with

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you but it's just not, like she's just not

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there anymore and like neither is anyone else and I

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think that's also really hard, right? It's just

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be like, I'm never gonna be able to be

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11 and play a scene. But what she taught

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you and yes, of course. And those are

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memories and lessons I'll take throughout my whole career.

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But of course it's just, it's just, it's

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uh and that kind of energy I and all of

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that I used for the season. I agree with

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that. Like the next day I was like really

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way more devastated than I thought I was going to

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be, um. And less so for the character

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for me like I, I loved playing Willie.

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He's such a huge part of it, but like

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being around everyone in that environment, like we will

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always have each other as friends, but being on

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set together and working with each other and working with

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her in those roles, like we'll never have that

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again. And so having to say, yeah,

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goodbye to that was hard, hard. We're a

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family till the day we die, whether we like

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it or not, we're always going to be family

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, and I think. Um, I think that

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is something I'll always carry with me, and I

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think that's why the show is what it is,

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because we, we believe in that too, and

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we all have the common goal, and every single

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year, we bring it better and better and better

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, and I think that this season, I've never

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seen, The cast come together more in in the

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years and we bring it like I've never seen it

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before. It's almost like the biggest thank you to

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the Duffers. Like, that's how I view it

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, you know, it's like they gave me this

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opportunity to be 11 and to bring this character to

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life for them. And so, all I can

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do is for the next year, give it my

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all to say thank you because I'll forever be in

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debt. My, my career is, is owed

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to them.